I've grown up knowing that; having it nailed into my entire being. You do not have sex before you are married.
Sex is an act of worship between a man and his wife, celebrating the one-ness God gave them.
I knew this struggle would come. The moment I made my decision to start having sex with the bf, I knew there would be a point where I would have to figure out how this is going to mesh with my relationship with the Big Guy.
I've chosen to partake in something He has called sin. I'm willingly doing it. So how do I span that gap between God and myself, and keep a thriving relationship?
I've known Christians far stronger than me who have had sex, continue to do so, and yet are right on track with God. So how do I get to that point?
I know God's not going to turn away from me for this one choice. But now I have to wonder, am I separating myself from Him out of the guilt of knowing I'm doing something wrong? If that is the case, how do I move past that?
There are those I've known who have suggested that by blatantly choosing to do the opposite of what God asked, I am choosing to abandon my faith and committment to God. Yet Daniel, one of God's favourites did the same, and he still managed to keep God's favour.
I suppose like everything else in life it's a learning curve. But right now, the guilt is eating me up inside; not so much that I've given up my virginity, but that I'm lacking the guilt that should accompany.
